DEAR DIARY | Can I fall in love please?!

Three months ago back in uni  my dad could not even bear  seeing a boy/guy or even being in a relationship  but now all I hear is 'ilé oko lò n lo' meaning 'you are going to your husband's house ' or I hear  'when you get married'
My cousins( 3 ladies) are getting married this year Good news abi? 'Well maybe , 'the only thing I hear is when you get married ' in my mind I'm like 'please can I fall in love first?! Thank you'
I will be asking my cousins the following questions ' are you in love' if yes what does it feel like?' ' where did you meet?' ' how did you know he was the one?'.. I know right they are weird questions but I must  ask oooooo so I know when I find this love.
This takes me back to chimamanda's speech, the one in the song with Beyonce- flawless.  Oya don't get me wrong , marriage  a great thing but love comes first you know like in  Telemundo and oyinbo movies  ,that love that doesn't make you think straight, maybe not as bad as that but you get what I mean. For some reason I feel these movies exaggerate love 'cos me I don't see people doing some ridiculous things they do in movie like yelling at your parents, you are just dead!!! Don't even come back home or travel to meet the one you love despite all odds without booking ticket ahead. 😅

Still on this marriage matter, I was having a chat with my mum(who is the coolest mum ) and she was talking about all the outrageously expensive aso-ebi people brought to her and she said your 'the aso-ebi for your wedding' I told her pause ma! Which wedding? When? With who nah?! Abeg I just turned 20, where am I rushing to, I have nysc, masters degree and at least 2-3 years to chop life and she laughed and said ' I had more plans than you'
Wedding will come in due time, not now, let me find Mr. Right and also carefully filter the available ones. By the way, the chances that my mum knows you if you are on my list is 109% 'cos we talk about EVERYTHING -money,fashion,life,my blog,marriage, sex, boys/men, food etc so you better do jeje and get her on your side.
I think I should start using the hashtag #operationfindbae #thisisseriousmatter #whenigetmarried .
Abi what do you think?
Help me help my condition, all of you that have fine guys and perfect gentle men as boyfriends or fiance, how did you find them ooo? Is there like an online store or something? Hook a sister up ...........